Oh Jennifer, I hear you. My situation was so similar to yours I could have written this. Mine was a bit different in that my ex stopped having sex with after I became pregnant. But like yours, there were always excuses why he wasn’t interested. “It’s a work night, I want to watch tv, etc.” Porn was a problem in mine too. And to know he preferred that over real sex was a mind f*ck. It took my affair to realize I was actually desirable. I feel for you. Being lonely with someone sitting next to you is the worst kind of loneliness. Take care.